IVF - First TimeThe first attempt,so new,and hopeful
Also a bit naive
The nasal spray,the hormone tablets,the injections
The blood tests,the mood swings,the timetable,the pessaries
The hopes and dreams
The ultrasounds to check egg follicles,the trigger injection
The egg collection,the sperm specimen
Then the fertilisation in a petri dish,and the wait to grow to blastocyst/embryo
So then the first embryo transfer-fresh,the rest frozen
Then the WAIT,the fucking horrible wait
Did it work? Am I pregnant? I want to be excited,don't get too excited
Waiting-DID IT WORK? DID IT WORK?
Hopeful-fucking horrible waiting
Waiting for the test day
The test day comes
I have the blood test to see if it worked,to see if I am PREGNANT
Am I pregnant? I hope I am so much
Everyone waiting and hoping-IS SHE PREGNANT?
Am I pregnant?
The phonecall comes
So nervous,so final,YES or NO? Please be yes,PLEASE BE YES,please be yes
I'm trying to be so strong,it's so difficult
I answer the phone-hopeful,so hopeful and nervous